The Opening


“A kind of light spread out from her. And everything changed color. And the world opened out. And a day was good to awaken to. And there were no limits to anything. And the people of the world were good and handsome. And I was not afraid any more.”― John Steinbeck, East of Eden

A child’s song

“Thed6b819_962fc55ac31e439898f2c94a439abbaere is a tribe in Africa where the birth date of a child is counted not from when they were born, nor from when they are conceived but from the day that the child was a thought in its mother’s mind. And when a woman decides that she will have a child, she goes off and sits under a tree, by herself, and she listens until she can hear the song of the child that wants to come. And after she’s heard the song of this child, she comes back to the man who will be the child’s father, and teaches it to him. And then, when they make love to physically conceive the child, some of that time they sing the song of the child, as a way to invite it.
And then, when the mother is pregnant, the mother teaches that child’s song to the midwives and the old women of the village, so that when the child is born, the old women and the people around her sing the child’s song to welcome it. And then, as the child grows up, the other villagers are taught the child’s song. If the child falls, or hurts it’s knee, someone picks them up and sings their song. Or perhaps the child does something wonderful, or goes through the rites of puberty, then as a way of honoring this person, the people of the village sing his or her song.  If at any time during his or her life, the person commits a crime or aberrant social act, the individual is called to the center of the village and the people in the community form a circle around them. They sing their song to them. The tribe recognizes that the correction for antisocial behavior is not punishment; it is love and the remembrance of identity. When you recognize your song, you have no desire or need to do anything that would hurt another.
And it goes this way through their life. In marriage, the songs are sung, together. And finally, when the person is lying in bed, ready to die, all the villagers know his or her song, and they sing — for the last time– the song to that person. “
Sending you blessed peaceful moments so that you may listen in your heart for the song of your baby!

On Becoming a Mother

d6b819_6e9f57679bee436a9a317fc2e29303b9In celebration of Mother’s Day, I would like to share with you one of my journal entries from several years ago, where I was reflecting on Becoming a Mother….
“I discovered a new life growing inside me and suddenly the normal everyday thing of ‘having a baby’ seemed miraculous because it was happening to me! I began to truly know and love my body– I felt like a walking sacred temple and everyone who saw me knew it, too.
In labor, I learned the power of trusting in myself and releasing to the ancient inner wisdom, once more questioning authority and seeking out my own answers. Yet I also learned to rely on others, to bring together a circle of support and trust in them as well.
I held my child, looked into his eyes, and in an instant knew what it really means to love– pure, unconditional, no-matter-what, to-the-day-I-die Love. And I learned what Spirit really is, for I was holding Pure Spirit in my arms.
Learning to embrace the unique expression of my spirituality, to embrace and express my divine feminine, was wonderfully freeing– like coming home. And I discovered ways to continue cultivating this energy in my life, in ritual and celebration of the Earth Mother, whom I am a part of. “
Sacredness, Release, Trust, Love…. these gifts have served me well on my mothering path. When we honor the sacred time of “becoming a mother”, we allow the new mama to discover the gifts that she will need on her expanding journey of motherhood, as well.
Welcome to the sacred circle, mama!

Letter to a Birthing Mama

d6b819_ede5cc22ff8b4d909b2617291a58c51dMama~ You have GOT this birth… you got it, on your own. Everything you need to birth your baby is right inside of you… you truly don’t need anything else. In fact it’s all the external things that threaten to get in the way of a birthing mama’s path, yes even the doula, sometimes.  Now, I’m not saying that you shouldn’t call one of us when it’s time… it can be very handy having one of us doulas around, for sure! But be careful where you are placing your power, because it truly, truly is ALL yours.
YOU are the force and power of the universe at your birthing time…
YOU and you alone can Hold that power in your body, and allow it to move through you, and deliver it into this world… into your arms.
We like to be there (as doulas, midwives, doctors, husbands, grandmas) because it is an amazing thing to witness and touch and be a small part of…. and if in some small way we feel that we have had the privilege to serve this Goddess of birth, then it enriches our lives for the better too.  But never forget… You are the Goddess of birth… not the birthing place, not the midwife, not the doula…. any and all of those things can change, but the power of birth stays the same…. Because it is you, it always has been… it was inside of you before you ever conceived this child, it lives inside of you now, and it will be inside of you even stronger after you birth your baby, forevermore.
So enjoy this journey, mama, even with all its twists and turns, peaks and valleys, and long seemingly endless plains!  Enjoy being with the only one who was there when you conceived this child, as you bring him into the world, together….because that’s all you need.    You’ve got this!
[I wrote this letter to a mama who had just found out that on top of recently switching birthing locations and careproviders (a couple weeks before birthing day) that it didn’t look like I, as her doula, would be able to be there, either….. and I realized that the greatest compliment I could ever receive (as one who works with women) is “I didn’t really need you…. I’m glad that you were there…. but I could’ve done this on my own!”…. and yes, that is me and my baby in the picture, moments after his emergence!]

Perceptions of Birth: Expansion vs. Contraction

Images, ideas, and stories of birth surround us everyday. What we are sometimes left with is a skewed and mostly inaccurate conception of the birthing time.  Consequently, we are not able to be open to the experience that is wanting to flow through us. Can it be different? YES!        It’s all about Awareness–  see where you are putting your focus and attention, see the limiting concepts you have in place or have adopted from our culture, and if what you see isn’t aligned with what you want- ask for it to be different. Have a willingness to release the old ideas and embrace something new.  This blog post is a start… a beginning to the seeing… a way to begin to Open ourselves to the endless possibilities of a new way of birthing…


Look at the picture above. When you focus on the black portion of the picture, you perceive an image of a vase; when you shift your focus to the white portion of the picture, you perceive a completely different image of two faces. What you put your focus and awareness on thus becomes your reality. When you focus on the black, this is a picture of a vase- that is the reality. When you shift your focus to the background, there is a figure-ground shift and this becomes a picture of two faces looking at each other- that becomes your new reality.
This principle is true in every part of our lives- what we focus on expands, our thoughts create our reality, energy flows where awareness goes, what we think about comes about.
How does this play out in the birth journey?
Imagine that you are in labor… you or your partner is timing each contraction, you are aware of how often you are having contractions and how long each contraction lasts. Your partner says, “Boy, that one seemed stronger than the last one, huh?” and you become aware of how strong each contraction is compared to the others. Someone you encountered along the way (a book, a friend, childbirth educator, care provider) had referred to contractions as ‘labor pains’ and that idea took hold in your subconscious mind. So your awareness is not only on the contraction but on the sensation that you experience as ‘labor pain’.  Someone may even ask you to rate your pain on a scale from 1- “not feeling much at all” to 10- “the worst pain you’ve ever felt”
But wait a minute…. in labor, you experience ‘contractions’ for only 45 seconds to a minute out of every 3-5 minutes. So what is the experience during the remaining time, when you are not ‘in contraction’? Most of labor is the time in between contractions.  During a 12 hour labor, in which contractions are coming every 4 minutes and lasting 1 minute, the time spent ‘in contraction’ is only 3 hours. What happened during the other 9 hours?
If our focus determines our perception, by placing our focus on the contractions our perception and experience of labor is contracted, closed, and limited.  We encounter this state of being in Contraction whenever we experience stress or fear. In Contraction, we are closed off from our external environment, protective of our bodies, and ready to fight or flee the perceived danger. When we are in a state of Contraction we are disconnected from ourselves and all others  and our physical body is being flooded with stress hormones (which interestingly can slow or halt the progression of labor.)
State of Contraction:
  • Closed-off
  • in Fear
  • Limited
  • Disconnected
  • useful for protection and survival
Let’s make a shift together now… a shift of awareness that takes us from what has been the foreground of our awareness in birthing to the background. It may take some time to adjust your focus, and that’s ok.  What is then the background of the birth journey? Most of your journey will be spent in this background place. Just as in our figure-ground perception, it is the opposite of where our focus has been placed- contraction- so let’s call it Expansion.
Imagine that you are on your birth journey… you and your partner are relaxing comfortably and enjoying this quality time together. Your partner says, “Wow sweetie, you are breathing and relaxing so well!” and you become more and more aware of how soft and relaxed your body feels.  Someone you encountered along the way (a book, friend, childbirth educator, doula or midwife) referred to the rhythmic sensations of the birth journey as  ‘waves of energy’ and that idea took root in your subconscious mind. So your awareness continues to float in this space of expansion, even as occasionally a wave will move through you, always bringing you back to this peaceful space. You are supported by your carefully chosen birth support team  who protect your birth space with positive, affirming words and actions allowing you to stay in this beautiful experience of expansion as you birth your baby.
When we are in a state of Expansion we are open to all possibilities, our bodies are able to relax and open, our hearts are open to experience peace, love and joy. We are connected mind-body-spirit and our physical bodies are flooded with the hormones responsible for feelings of trust, love and well-being (which interestingly are also the hormones responsible for birthing a baby.)
State of Expansion:
  • Openness
  • in Love
  • Limitless
  • Connected
  • useful for Growth and Reproduction
Everything about the process of becoming a parent is about Expansion. Expansion is the energy of Creativity, just as we need to be expansive and open in order to receive new creative ideas; we need to be expansive and open in the creation of new life.  At the first thought of conceiving a child we open ourselves to new possibilities; at conception we expand our senses and open our body to merge with another; throughout the pregnancy our belly expands with the growth of our baby and we open our mind to new knowledge; our body opens in new ways during birth; and our heart expands with pure love.
In what other ways can you expand your awareness and allow a figure-ground shift to take place. Birthing is a fertile time of becoming…. opening…. creating… allowing… surrendering… to who we really are.
Enjoy the journey~ Catherine